*warning: long post with no pretty pictures*
When it comes to hobbies, I am not unlike a magpie chasing shiny objects. Graphic design sounds like fun - I am going to sign up on Lynda.com and watch a million hours of video on how to lay out a magazine! Photography is awesome - I am going to take a photoshop course and spend hours on the computer tweaking levels! Interior Design has always been a passion - I am going to launch an online design business even though I have no training and little experience! Then there's yoga (which at least I am consistent about), knitting, painting, reading, BLOGGING.... there are times when I get an hour to myself and am actually at a loss for where to start or what to do!
After quitting my (pretty awesome) job at the Symphony a year and a half ago, I have been really enjoying spending time with my kids. Sure, there are some monumentally frustrating days, but generally it has been a crazy blessing to be able to tell myself "this is my job and I love it." Read books with them, make them lunch, watch them play cars, break up fights, listen to them talking to each other, do crafts - the days fly by. I have thrown myself into this time completely, grabbing these precious days with both hands and wringing out every sweet hug, funny face, and paint-covered high five.
Now, on the horizon, I can see the end coming. An end, and of course a new beginning. In September, both my boys will be in school full time (9 to 3). This doesn't mean I don't get hugs and hang-out time anymore (God forbid!) but it will definitely be the dawn of the new era for us all. It is only February and I have many more months of boy-time ahead of me, including those awesome summer months, but I feel like I should be preparing for my own reality now.
My sabbatical from Making Money (since it certainly isn't a break from WORK) has been fully supported and encouraged by my whole family - I definitely couldn't have done it without everyone's sign-off. But a was conceived as a sabbatical, meaning eventually I would return to work away from the boys and start putting money back into the bank account. Right now, I can't imagine going back to life the way it was; I am a different person than the girl who did marketing for the Symphony. Ideally, I will be able to do something part-time, during the school hours, and still be able to walk the boys home from school.
But WHAT??!!?? I am pretty confident I know how start up a start-up. I have read books, blogs, watched videos and am fully inspired to build a successful business. After all, marketing was my line of work - I can direct-mail-social-media-conversion-rate-advertise-promotions the hell out of this business. I can network-leverage-collaborate-media-SEO-customer-service with the best of them. But first I have to figure out what the hell I will be selling!
In the past few months I have done logo work, website work, marketing consulting work, graphic design work and tried my hand at interior design. The problem? I loved ALL of it! But I have to pick one thing and do it well, right? So now I am feeling lost and directionless. I feel like I have to pick one and get much better at it before I can launch a business and charge people money for it. Right? But as soon as I start with one, I am crippled with indecision and doubt - maybe this is the wrong one. I should go back to that other one.
I really love interior design, but I have absolutely no confidence there. People go to school for this, intern, apprentice, yada yada. Who the hell am I to equate putting a mood board and layout together and thinking I'm a designer? Graphic design is really fun and I think I could be really good at it. But the learning curve on the programmes is STEEP guys, and there are so many graphic designers out there - would I even find work? Marketing is where I feel confident, maybe I should stick with that and offer consulting for creatives?
|Photo Credit Andrés Þór|